This has been an incredibly long week for me – by far the busiest I have been at my job since moving home from Japan in December 2012. In addition, my home life has been very busy as well. I’ve had a lot to take care of this week…and to be honest, if all goes well with my company, I’m only going to get busier (I work as an independent translation contractor right now, but there’s a fairly good chance that if a big deal gets signed in June then I will be hired full time as a Business Analyst, who also happens to do translation work as well). These changes are good, and to be honest, I’ve been feeling a lot more stable lately in general (not just in relation to my job). My relationship with Jack is as good as ever, I feel more spiritually fulfilled than I ever have, and I’m very much enjoying writing for this blog, as well as helping out as a moderator over at Pagan 101. I’ve just had a lot of opportunities come up recently that involve meeting new friends, getting to know old friends even better, and also spend much-needed time with my family…and I also happen to have a lot to look forward to in the coming few months.
In short: life is good. And because of that, I just want to take a moment and say “thank you.”
Thank you, first of all, to my Gods. I’m not necessarily one of those people who asks constantly for my Gods to help me with various endeavors, but I do talk to Them (every day) about my concerns, issues, worries, and goals. I ask Them, not to grant me every wish automatically, but to give me the strength and patience and endurance to work hard at what I need to do in order to accomplish my goals and wishes, and the fortitude to put up with setbacks as they appear throughout my life. I ask my Gods to aid in healing those in need of healing, and those in need of safe travels, and those less fortunate than I am…but I pray to my Gods, not to simply “save” all of us, but watch over us. What I honestly want most from my Gods, in the end, is Their presence. It makes me feel safe and happy simply knowing They are there, with and around me, and with and around those that I love. And for me, that is enough. Anything else They are able to provide are added blessings.
And so I thank Them. With all of my heart.
Thank you, secondly, to my friends and family. I know a few of you read this blog (a few close friends, anyway), and I thank you most profoundly for always sticking by me and being there for me, especially when I am complaining about something or worried about something. I could not do all that I do without your constant support. I thank Jack, also, though I know he does not regularly read my blog (though he knows it exists), for being the love of my life, among other important roles. The human community around me is as important as the Divine one.
Thirdly, thank you, to all of the readers/followers of this blog (and my tumblr too, starslikesugar), who I may or may not know well outside of the Internet. Honestly, thank you. I originally started a spiritual blog to write for myself and show devotion to my Gods, but I admit, I have found happiness is also writing for all of you. It’s less about self-satisfaction (I’m not seeking attention, honestly), and more about helping others. I love to help others, and I love to be a foundational place for people to come when they need something – anything! – advice, a hug, etc. And in a way, I guess it is a bit self-fulfilling, because helping people makes me happy. It’s part of the reason I am so happy to be a part of projects like Pagan 101. Thank you to all who voted for me to be a moderator there, and to all who support me in various other ways. Seriously, you rock.
I follow and read many of your blogs, as well – know that even if I don’t always comment, I’m reading. So, let me also say “thank you” to those who also write for the community (and for themselves, and their Gods). Thank you to those who have informational websites, who help others, who write guidebooks, who are also foundations, builders, and “boat paddlers” as a certain blogger is known to call it ^_^ You are all amazing, honestly. Much of what I do is based on the inspiration I have drawn from your work. And thank you also, to my teachers and mentors over at the House of Netjer…the Kemetic Orthodoxy beginner’s course is almost over, and it has been a pleasure learning from you. I hope to learn even more from you in the future!
Finally, thank you to all of the newbies, the question-askers – without you, we (the Pagan/Polytheist/Recon community as a whole) would not have a future. Without you, we would have no one to help; no one to have discussions with, and no one to watch grow and contribute in their own unique ways. You guys are awesome. Never give up on your own personal spiritual journeys. That sort of thing is a lifelong process, and it can be hard sometimes, certainly. But it is a rewarding process all the same.
And so I look to the future with renewed hope, as corny as that might sound. For myself, personally, and for the Pagan/Polytheist/Recon community. All of those blog posts people have been writing lately about “community” have inspired me, and they have instilled in me a sort of…inner peace regarding the subject as a whole. We’re not perfect, and we may never be…but we are getting somewhere. There’s work to do, but I have confidence it will get done, someday. And I am happy to be a part of the process.
The world is indeed full of peril, and in it there are many dark places; but still there is much that is fair, and though in all lands love is now mingled with grief, it grows perhaps the greater.” –Haldir (J.R.R. Tolkien, The Fellowship of the Ring)